Showing posts with label children. Show all posts
Showing posts with label children. Show all posts

Tuesday, 24 January 2017

Summer OOTD 3 | Kylee Maree

Today's outfit was classy-casual. I had a few things to do around the house so I wanted to be comfortable. I also need to head out a bit later and get a few things done so I wanted to look presentable! This is the outfit I came up with to tick all those boxes.




My top is from Target. It's the perfect staple to any wardrobe as it can be dressed up or dressed down. I love the boat neckline and the slightly longer sleeves on this top. I find it to be very classy. There's not much more to say about this top other than I love love love it!


These pants are another item that can be dressed up or down. Simply by wearing a good quality singlet top and a blazer, this could easily turn into a work outfit or a romantic dinner outfit. My most favourite part about these pants is that they are super comfortable (although I should have gone 1 size up) and they have pockets. Mum's love pockets!


My 'thongs' as we call them in Australia (flip flops) are from Kmart. The rope detail give them texture while the studs and silver piping give them a glam affect. I'm aware they are not gold like my accessories, but I thought I would try mixing up my silver and gold today!


These gorgeous earrings were a present so unfortunately, I don't know where they're from.


This bracelet from Kmart was from the set (I think) that I was wearing in my last OOTD. I'm loving the high gloss. Pieces like these are so versatile. It could work along side with a bunch of other bracelets or just on its own to give a more subtle 'put together' look.

To hear more information on this outfit, click on the video below.

Have a lovely day :)


Thursday, 17 November 2016

A day in the life

Caitlin (10) and I woke up this morning at 6:30am. I ate my breakfast in peace and got myself dressed, all by 7am. James (2) got up so I got him dressed then I caught up on my fb for a few minute. Every morning I have to push Caitlin to hurry up with each task she has to do because if I leave it, she will spend 3 unknowing hours doing her hair. So every 10 minutes I remind her that there is 30 mins untill we leave, then 20, and so on.

7:30am - I wake up Mary (4), my child who could sleep for 14 hours straight. I start dressing her and while doing so, reminding Caitlin that she has 5 mins until we leave, she starts yelling at me that she has no food and ‘oh well thanks, guess I’ll starve then’. She had told me about an hour earlier that there wasn’t anything for lunch so I said make a salad sandwich, take an apple, a muslie bar and cut up some carrot and have dip and carrot. So I ask her what she had made in that hour. She hand selected a muslie bar. So naturally while then trying to tackle James to the ground to get his shoes on, I began to yell at her. ‘Stop having a go at me for not getting you food when your too bloody lazy to make any!!’ I then told her what there was to eat again, I found a muffin for her to take, I went to hand said muffin to her and then I realised that I’m talking to thin air! She had walked out and sat in the car back somewhere between ‘fine Ill starve’ and ‘stop being lazy’. I threw the muffin at the couch, stormed outside and said FINE YOU CAN STARVE!

7:40am – Getting the kids into the car is tedious. It’s really not that bad but for me, the door is opened, I sit down, I turn the key, change the gear and I’m gone. 30 second job. Anything longer annoys me. The worst is when I’m waiting for a car park and the person digs around for their keys, slowly unloads their shopping, checks their mirrors, adjusts their hair, checks Facebook, takes a phone call and then reverses out of the spot at a snail’s pace. Mary generally stands at the door in the way of her brother who needs to get in first (only one of my back doors unlocks, I need to get it fixed), and she’s somewhere in lala land because she’s woken up 10 minutes beforehand. I asked her to move, her brother jumped in, over the centre console, and into my seat. Mary always climbs in in a way that can only be described as someone with two broken hips trying to climb a stair case. It takes FOREVER. She gets buckled in, James laughs at me, I yell at James and eventually he sits in his car seat. Now I get into the front seat, lean across the console and try to strap James in while he argues with me that he wants to do it himself. Which also takes FOREVER.

7:45am - We sat in silence until I realise I forgot my phone! ‘CRAP’. What if day care needs me? What if the school needs me? No one has my work number because I’ve only just started and honestly, when do I have time to call everyone and give them my new emergency contact? Too bad. I have just enough time to do the drop offs and get to work. James usually kicks up a huge stink when I leave him and I usually hang out for a little to wait till their settled but today, I just didn’t want to. So I didn’t. And he didn’t even care. Winning!!! More car silence until we got to school. I said goodbye to try to break the ice but I was frozen over when she just shut the door. What really annoyed me was that I had given her $20 just before the whole, I’m a crap mum who starves her children incident happened, so that after school, she could go buy a matching top with her best friend. I really wanted to run after her screaming and take it back but I figured her starving for the day was punishment enough.  And I didn’t want to embarrass myself. And ain’t nobody got time for that.

There was an incident with a truck, a ditch and a lot of dirt on the road so I had to wait in traffic. Thank goodness I didn’t go back for my phone! But the whole drive I just had a bad feeling. Like maybe I should try to call the school and daycare from the work phone to give them my work number.

8:30am - WORK – waitress, barista, all round good person. (Didn’t call the school or daycare)

2:55pm – Roughly 1.5 hours before I finish work, I get a phone call on the work phone. ‘I have Caitlin here in sick bay throwing up. We’ve been trying to contact you. We have contacted your second emergency contact and they gave us this number.’  Clearly my other emergency contact doesn’t want to look after my throwing up kid! Like gee it’s just vomit which may be contagious but you’ll be right lol. I had 20 mins until school finishes and my work is 30 mins away. But I’m super mum.

3:20pm (5 mins late) – Me: ‘How are you feeling babe?’, Caitlin: ‘Yeah fine now, can I go to my friends?’ Me: ‘Are you serious?’. Lucky for her, she started to feel poo again as soon as we got in the car.

4pm - Food shopping, pick up kids. I get told by James ‘I want daddy’ (daily occurrence), then he folded his arms and I had to bribe him with icypoles to leave the day care with me. The kids had a bath while I cleaned the kitchen and then James and I cooked dinner together. He’s really into cooking so I try to involve him as much as possible. Having my 2 year old standing at the stove stirring strips of beef is probably a very frightening picture, but he’s been doing it for ages now. He’s basically a chef. We had souvlaki style wraps so the kids built their own, but then James refused to eat anything else except cucumber. And Caitlin was feeling much worse so she didn’t eat at all. The poor thing wanted cuddles but I was like ‘sorry mate, I don’t want what you got. Have a wet face washer and a bucket instead’.

6:30pm - I got a request from James for cordial so I started to pour, then James began to scream and cry. He had changed his mind. He wanted milk. Mary wanted cordial. Caitlin was still yelling out to me to lay down with her. For the next hour I just floated around. A bit of YouTube here, a bit of cleaning there.

7:30pm – BED TIME! Mary asked me if its bedtime yet. That kid loves her sleep haha. They’d been naked since bath time because it was super hot here today so they went and choose their own pyjamas and I dressed them. I popped them into bed and in doing so, discovered that James had pulled everything out of his drawers when choosing his pyjamas. Yey, now I have something to do in the morning. Mary has been having night terrors the past few nights so she started crying saying she was scared. Mind you, it was still daylight because its daylight savings time. I decided tonight I would go the tough love approach, I told her she would be ok and I just walked out. James ran out, turned on the hall light and went back to bed. It’s the end of the week now so they went straight to sleep. The start of the week is a different story! They get 4 days off day care and that’s enough time to fully recharge the batteries. By Monday they jump on beds, kick walls, giggle ect ect. But tonight, I get blissful peace, followed by a moan from Caitlin every now and again.

XX

Tuesday, 17 March 2015

Change

You know when things just don't go the way you planned. Those really big plans that make a huge impact on your life. Like where you live or having children. Look at your current situation. Now click your fingers and imagine the complete opposite. Did you feel excited? Nervouse? Sad? Anxious? I think if things could literally change in a click of our fingers we would all be feeling a little anxious. Even if the change is good because change isn't comfortable. It takes us a while to settle into our new lives. It's the predictability in each day that makes us feel stable, like what time our kids wake up, or what time we start work, or when we eat dinner. 

My life changed in a click of the finger. That dam finger. Anxiety is always with me now because it's hard to settle into something that you don't want. Maybe I blinded myself to the inevitable because I didn't want to believe it could ever end. Maybe I took the ring on my left finger too literal.

So what now? 


I sat on this question for a really long time. Those aweful what if's poured into my head like toxic waste. Then sadness, as if someone had passed away. I mourned for my children, especially my son. There's never a day that goes by that he doesn't cry from 6pm on. That was the time he spent with his dad each day. How can I fill his shoes? 

After a lot of tears and soul searching it finally dawned on me. I don't have a choice in the matter. The only choice I have now is how many days I dwell in these painful thoughts. 

I chose today to be my last...