Update in general

Holy crap on a cracker! I was meant to do a baby shower haul blog, but after doing the hour long video, and the fact that it was weeks ago now, I really cannot be bothered! I'm so sorry if anyone was waiting for this but if you would like to watch the videos, this is the first part of the present haul and part 2 and 3 and the story and belly update are on my channel!

I am so so so exhausted!! I feel like I've just jumped in a time machine back to the first trimester (why couldn't it be to a happier time?) minus the morning sickness, and add a huge, uncomfortable, contracting belly. Yep, braxton hicks are at there worst now!!! I struggle to breath through them, theres so much pressure i feel like my waters are going to pop and I basically can't move ;( 

Whinge whinge whinge right?!

Well I do have a few positive things to say but ill save them for the end and leave this post on a happy note :)

So back to my sooking... I'm emotional all over again. Eg, this phone I'm typing on keeps spell checking my words completely wrong, and I just want to throw it hard against the wall and then jump on it a few times. But I'm lucky enough to still have some logic left in me. It says that would be a bad idea.. 

I really want school holidays to be over. Not because I dislike Caitlin or any of this is her fault. She just likes to ask the same thing over and over and she does this thing where every time you speak to her she says "huh?" at least once. I've found myself yelling "OPEN YOUR FREAKIN EARS!!!" My poor child! She's now telling me she REEEEAAALLLYYY wants to go back to school. I wonder why! I think she well deserves a mummy daughter night out with lots of ice cream and pancakes!!

Don't even get me started on MJ! Why did she have to be such a genius?! She is currently saying to me "mummy, mummy, MUMMY, mummy, I want milk, I want milk, mummy, I want milk, MUMMY". Her new favourite sentence at 20 months is "I want....." Which she uses maybe 200 times a day. Her first sentence was "love you" at 18 months. I liked that sentence. Her favourite activity it to figure out ways to spill all the water out of her spill proof sippy cups. All over the house. ATM it's straight onto my bed. God help me.

So what do you get when you put an emotional, tired pregnant woman with an "I WANT" toddler and an off with the fairies 7 year old who can't stand her little sister? 

Mum: hiding in bed with a pillow over her head.

Caitlin: spacing out to the tv screaming "oi" at MJ every 2 seconds

MJ: pulling all my plastic stuff out of my kitchen cupboards still repeating "I want milk"..

I usually have alot more control over my household but I tried to keep everyone in check yesterday and ended up balling my eyes out until Tom came and saved the day. I cleaned our bedroom, but then dumped all the clean washing in there so it now looks like a tip. I cleaned the girls room, but then MJ and Caitlin decided to have a play date in there. I cleaned the lounge room about 5 times, who am I kidding? That room will never be clean. I tried doing dishes but by the time I got through the cups, there was no drying room left and I had to cook dinner. So now all the dinner dishes are added to that. Meanwhile im having constant braxton hicks which are becoming painful, especially when i have to bend down 1000 times a day to pick stuff up off the floor. I made the executive decision to turn on the sprinkler so I could sit for 5 minutes and threw MJ and Caitlin outside. Didn't take them long to get bored and for Caitlin to start getting frustrated with MJ. So I put dirt covered MJ in the shower while I finished off dinner then got her dressed and both girls fed. MJ's dinner ended up all over my freshly steam cleaned floor (My fault. Haven't got around to buying a plastic mat), all through her hair and basically her eye balls were the only thing not covered in dinner. By this point I was holding back tears so I put them both in the shower (again!) and collapsed on my bed in tears. Which is when my night in shining armour came home from golf and dressed the girls, put them to bed, and fed me a gallon of icy cold water. Oh I forgot to mention, it was really hot yesterday too.

I experienced alot of pain yesterday which is basically telling me I over did it, so today I'm relaxing while my children destroy my house. Which is why I'm in my bedroom (doors and ears open of course). So I don't freak out over the mess lol.

I'm hoping that my energy comes back soon because I was so excited to start writing lists for our hospital bags and what's left to buy for jelly bean. I got together all the clothes that I want for myself at the hospital, then I forced myself to do jelly beans clothes a few days later (I was tired by this point) and now every time I look at that bag, I cringe. I keep thinking, if I go into labour, at least I won't be spending my time in hospital naked. Who needs toiletries and comfort items? Lol. With MJ I was super excited to pack our bags. That thing was organised right down to the last hair tie!! And surprisingly not over packed. And as I said I got just as excited this time around but about 4 days ago I hit a brick wall and all my energy and giving a cr*p went out the window. It's actually quite depressing, maybe I need some retail therapy. Or maybe just some therapy? Lol.

Today is shopping/bill day. This day comes every Tuesday and I actually get really excited for this day because it starts off my week. And because I'm super organise so I feel a great achievement when all the bills are payed and the cupboards and fridge are full! I got out of bed around 7am. Fed myself and MJ (Caitlin feeds herself). Got dressed. Checked out all my social media sights. Wrote this post. And it's now 10:30am and I want to go back to bed!! What is wrong with me?????? I actually want to slap myself in the face. Please please please let this stage of pregnancy end soon! Some people take this opportunity to relax but I can't think of anything worse then spending the day sitting on my butt. When i put a movie on, within 5 minutes im up vacuuming or doing the dishes! 

Is anyone else going through this? Because I really feel for you!

Well after I post this I am getting up and heading out :) I think the only person who can help me is me (and a bunch of cuddles off Tom ;p) We were given a gift voucher for Coles Myer so I'm going to go take our last laybys off, which are full of hospital goodies, and I'm positive that will get me excited for finishing off our hospital bags. Ill still slowly add to them over the coming weeks but i'd like to have majority of it done by 35-36 weeks. And I will defiantly be posting a video and blog post on this! Promise ;)

Jelly bean is now head down which gives me quite a bit of pressure and I've been told I have an irritable uterus which means it contracts with almost any movement I or the baby do! But although this is really uncomfortable, it's giving me hope that this baby won't be late, unlike my girls who just didn't want to leave mummy!

My skin has cleared up nicely. I don't think I mentioned that it was bad but all the junk I ate over Xmas and with the very hot weather we had, I had a major, very painful break out. I'm really trying to take care of it so I'm glad it's showing such great improvement :) I kind of just use what ever is on hand so it's not worth doing a skincare routine for you guys. But I will get around to going into a beauty store once jelly bean is born and asking what products are best for my skin (oily, rosatia, large pores). Once I have all the proper products, I plan on doing a video :)

My weight has stabilised at 73-74kgs. Although this means I've only gained 4-5kgs, I don't feel underweight or malnourished so I'm actually happy about this. I'm defiantly more plump in the breast, belly and bum area so that's a good sign of weight gain!!

We haven't picked a name yet!! We have 2 that we like but they haven't made me go 'ding ding ding'. I'm trying not to stress about this and just let it come to me :) All my favourite names, Tom doesn't like and vice versa. So we're left with using names that we think are average. If you have any suggestions, leave them in the comments! I'm thinking the name will come to me in some major epiphany moment. I can imagine it now. Walking to the car with all my shopping in hand and suddenly all the bags break (my luck). Over runs a kind old man who offers to help pick up my groceries, although he is fragile himself, and he says "hi my names....." And it will be the best name ever. Or the worst, and ill end up rolling around on the ground laughing.. 

So that concludes all my updates and I really better go as MJ is now naked, sitting in the (not turned on) shower playing with cat food :) 

Xxx

DISCLAIMER: I would not trade being a mother for anything in the world! Sometimes we just need to let off some steam (or alot!). I wrote this blog post as I know many mothers have days like these  and can relate. Stay sane my fellow mummy's!

Xxx

32 week pregnancy update

This week has been one of the hottest weeks I can remember and I've had to go without aircon ;( It's been a constant 42-45c (107-113f) all week but I must say I coped pretty well considering I baby sat 2 out of the 5 hot days and had to have the dogs inside the whole time (out of the full sun). 

Plus there was the cakes and cupcakes I had to make for the baby shower, the last minute shopping and we steam cleaned the house twice!! Although I drank a tonne of water, I had to stop every half an hour because it really took its toll on me.

But on a happier note, we had our baby shower yesterday (I'm writing this on Sunday) and it was such a fantastic day! I usually plan these big parties and I end up stressed out over making the food and setting myself decorating tasks that I know I could never complete. And then of course the morning of my parties I end up with 10 text msgs off people cancelling for one reason or another and then half the people show. So basically most of my parties are epic fails! This time I was incredibly organised and very calm. I decided to take short cuts where I could, packet mix cake mixed with my own ingredients to make one very tasty cake, pre making what I could days before, set the main table up the day before ect. And then a large amount of people I didn't expect to show up, did! Most of them I hadn't seen in years so it was so fun to catch up! Ill tell you all about it in my next blog post plus a present haul of all the amazing presents we received.

Week: 32 weeks

Pregnancy symptoms: I've had a boob-spurt in the last few days. Suddenly my maternity bras from my last pregnancy don't fit! I'm having quite intense braxton hicks now. They take my breath away and almost feel like the start of labour. Apparently they get worse with each pregnancy :(

Moody/happy: I've been a little sooky this week but I put that down to the heat and all the things that have been on my mind. Although I have 8 weeks to go, I'm starting to want to have everything done like wash all jelly beans stuff, pack my hospital bags and clean up Mjs car seat to turn back into an infant seat. I think my impatience is stressing me out a little. I hope it goes away soon!! Tom bought me these beautiful flowers today to cheer me up!!! :)

Total weight gain: 73.3kgs again this week. I guess my weight gain has stopped for now.

New stuff: So I didn't know what to title this, obviously lol, but I did some shopping today and would like to share! Most of the stuff I layby'd as I don't need it just yet. I got a black 3/4 sleeved feeding top as the one I currently own is all stretched. I plan on using this after the baby is born. I got 2 tops that have a deep vneck to make it easy for breast feeding but they go loose under the breast so I can wear them as soon as bubs is born and not have to worry about left over belly flab! I got a 3 pack of singlet suits as I'm not the biggest fan of singlets but these are expensive compared to singlets so I'm doing half and half. I got all the minis for the hospital, a Johnson's pack for bubs and deodorant, shampoo, conditioner mouth wash and body wash for Tom and I. I got a toiletry bag for the hospital. I got a 3 pack of muslin swaddles and 3 pack of stretchy swaddles. It will be the end of summer, start of autumn here in Australia so although I like stretchy swaddles, I have muslin ones as well so he won't overheat if its a warm day. I got an extra towel as I only have one for him so far. I got some orthodontic dummies just incase. And I think that's about it!!!

Looking forward to: It's Tom's birthday in 2 weekends and I'm looking forward to spoiling him! I'm not sure what were doing over the weekend but I think he will be very pleased with his presents :)

Xxx

31 week pregnancy update!!!!

Week: 31 weeks :)

Pregnancy symptoms: If you watch my YouTube channel or read last weeks post, you will know that Tom and I are juicing! This has given me tonnes of energy :) I've been running around like a mad hatter cleaning and organising my house! But as of yesterday I got a bit slack and only had the one in the arvo and haven't had one yet today. I notice such a big difference. I'm struggling to keep my eyes open!! My indigestion has eased up since eating very healthy too. I pretty much don't have it anymore at all!!!  I've been trying hard to stick to my facial routine but once again, the last 2 days have been slack so I've only been cleansing my face once a day, but I'm still seeing an improvement. Otherwise I just feel a little uncomfortable as jelly bean makes his way up under my ribs but I think he dropped a little to make room to grow some more!

Moody/happy: Still pretty normal! I don't feel hormonal at all :)

Total weight gain: 73.7kgs-74kgs (my scales are being stupid and giving me either one of these each time I step on and off!)

Miss anything: I miss my energy! I wish I had energy to just get everything done without having to juice ect. It seems as though all my chores are dragging out so much! And it's getting quite warm too so I miss having a nice sip on hot days like these :(

Looking forward to: I've just received some of my baby shower stuff in the mail from eBay! And I bought a few items from kmart and woolworths so I'm getting really excited about my shower. To the point that I'm mad cleaning my house and yard lol. I get a bit perfectionist sometimes when I have the energy! Can't wait :) !!

Xxx

29 week pregnancy update

Week: 29 weeks 

Pregnancy symptoms: I'm starting to feel very large. It's not too bad but I do find myself waddling and am finding it a little difficult to move around.

Moody/happy: Overall, very happy :) I did get a little emotional last night from lack of sleep over Christmas but otherwise there has been a smile on this dial all week!!

Total weight gain: 74.5kgs :s eeep I did some damage over Xmas!!!

Best moment this week: Well that's quite obvious!! It was Christmas of course!! We had a wonderful 2 day Christmas celebration with our families and I got very spoilt :) 

Looking forward to: Christmas is over, so now we have a baby shower to organise!! And I had to move the date because a few family members couldn't make it so its only 3 weeks away now!!!! We have decided to have a very relaxed BBQ, with men and women, in a blue theme of course!! I've always organised my own baby showers. I don't thinks its very big here in Australia to have your mum/best friend organise it for you and I don't want to take the chance and possibly miss out on having one! I've had a baby shower for each of my children which seems sort of greedy to some but I have asked for no presents as we just want to celebrate our babies!! I think the rest of this pregnancy is going to go super quick seeing as its new years eve in 4 days, our baby shower in 3 weeks, Tom's birthday in 5 weeks, my brothers birthday in 9 weeks and our baby is due to make his grand entrance in 11 weeks!!! I'm almost positive there's a few more birthdays in there somewhere!

Watch my 29 week update here.

Xxx

24 week pregnancy update :)

Its been one hectic busy week!!!

Week: 24 weeks

Pregnancy symptoms: Be careful what you wish for. I've been saying this pregnancy has become very slow and boring, and as many of you know I've been having back troubles. Well I went on a cleaning rampage again, then I drove almost 2 hours away and back again 2 days in a row which left me almost cripple. It got to the point where even rolling over in bed was impossible and I was couch bound :( then on Tuesday night the pain went from my back to my groin and I got very panicked because I felt so much pressure and shooting pains that I thought labour was trying to jump start. I cant even beginto explain how painful it was. On top of that we all have a horrible cold so Mary-Jane was awake most of the night with me in this unbareable pain and poor Tom ended up having to try to settle her which gave him about half an hour of sleep all night. I gave up trying to sleep at 5am and went to the toilet which is when a huge light bulb appeared over my head like in the cartoons. This was like a uti but a million times worse. So off to the doc I went and sure enough there was huge amounts of blood and protein in my urine. That's why labour felt like it was on its way, because uti's can put you in labour, especially severe ones like I had. I still have slight back pain but if that's all I have to live with for the next 16 weeks, I'm happy!! I'm still battling a cold but fingers crossed it goes away soon.

Moody/happy: A bit of both. If I didn't have the uti and cold I'm positive I would have been happy all week but being so sick and almost cripple got me a little down :( But I'm very happy now even though I still have the cold, because..... It's my birthday Sunday!!!!!!!

Total weight gain: 73kgs

Sleep: The first 4 nights of the week were awful, I basically didn't sleep at all. The last 3 days however, I can't get enough sleep! I could sleep all day, it's that fantastic!

Looking forward to: My birthday is on Sunday!!!!!!! I already started celebrating 2 days ago lol. I think Tom has a few suprises up his sleeve for this weekend and my step sisters 21st party is on Saturday so busy busy busy! 

Best moment this week: The Troy and Adam concert :) We had so much fun!

Watch my 24 week update here.

Xxx