Holy crap on a cracker! I was meant to do a baby shower haul blog, but after doing the hour long video, and the fact that it was weeks ago now, I really cannot be bothered! I'm so sorry if anyone was waiting for this but if you would like to watch the videos,
this is the first part of the present haul and part 2 and 3 and the story and belly update are on my channel!
I am so so so exhausted!! I feel like I've just jumped in a time machine back to the first trimester (why couldn't it be to a happier time?) minus the morning sickness, and add a huge, uncomfortable, contracting belly. Yep, braxton hicks are at there worst now!!! I struggle to breath through them, theres so much pressure i feel like my waters are going to pop and I basically can't move ;(
Whinge whinge whinge right?!
Well I do have a few positive things to say but ill save them for the end and leave this post on a happy note :)
So back to my sooking... I'm emotional all over again. Eg, this phone I'm typing on keeps spell checking my words completely wrong, and I just want to throw it hard against the wall and then jump on it a few times. But I'm lucky enough to still have some logic left in me. It says that would be a bad idea..
I really want school holidays to be over. Not because I dislike Caitlin or any of this is her fault. She just likes to ask the same thing over and over and she does this thing where every time you speak to her she says "huh?" at least once. I've found myself yelling "OPEN YOUR FREAKIN EARS!!!" My poor child! She's now telling me she REEEEAAALLLYYY wants to go back to school. I wonder why! I think she well deserves a mummy daughter night out with lots of ice cream and pancakes!!
Don't even get me started on MJ! Why did she have to be such a genius?! She is currently saying to me "mummy, mummy, MUMMY, mummy, I want milk, I want milk, mummy, I want milk, MUMMY". Her new favourite sentence at 20 months is "I want....." Which she uses maybe 200 times a day. Her first sentence was "love you" at 18 months. I liked that sentence. Her favourite activity it to figure out ways to spill all the water out of her spill proof sippy cups. All over the house. ATM it's straight onto my bed. God help me.
So what do you get when you put an emotional, tired pregnant woman with an "I WANT" toddler and an off with the fairies 7 year old who can't stand her little sister?
Mum: hiding in bed with a pillow over her head.
Caitlin: spacing out to the tv screaming "oi" at MJ every 2 seconds
MJ: pulling all my plastic stuff out of my kitchen cupboards still repeating "I want milk"..
I usually have alot more control over my household but I tried to keep everyone in check yesterday and ended up balling my eyes out until Tom came and saved the day. I cleaned our bedroom, but then dumped all the clean washing in there so it now looks like a tip. I cleaned the girls room, but then MJ and Caitlin decided to have a play date in there. I cleaned the lounge room about 5 times, who am I kidding? That room will never be clean. I tried doing dishes but by the time I got through the cups, there was no drying room left and I had to cook dinner. So now all the dinner dishes are added to that. Meanwhile im having constant braxton hicks which are becoming painful, especially when i have to bend down 1000 times a day to pick stuff up off the floor. I made the executive decision to turn on the sprinkler so I could sit for 5 minutes and threw MJ and Caitlin outside. Didn't take them long to get bored and for Caitlin to start getting frustrated with MJ. So I put dirt covered MJ in the shower while I finished off dinner then got her dressed and both girls fed. MJ's dinner ended up all over my freshly steam cleaned floor (My fault. Haven't got around to buying a plastic mat), all through her hair and basically her eye balls were the only thing not covered in dinner. By this point I was holding back tears so I put them both in the shower (again!) and collapsed on my bed in tears. Which is when my night in shining armour came home from golf and dressed the girls, put them to bed, and fed me a gallon of icy cold water. Oh I forgot to mention, it was really hot yesterday too.
I experienced alot of pain yesterday which is basically telling me I over did it, so today I'm relaxing while my children destroy my house. Which is why I'm in my bedroom (doors and ears open of course). So I don't freak out over the mess lol.
I'm hoping that my energy comes back soon because I was so excited to start writing lists for our hospital bags and what's left to buy for jelly bean. I got together all the clothes that I want for myself at the hospital, then I forced myself to do jelly beans clothes a few days later (I was tired by this point) and now every time I look at that bag, I cringe. I keep thinking, if I go into labour, at least I won't be spending my time in hospital naked. Who needs toiletries and comfort items? Lol. With MJ I was super excited to pack our bags. That thing was organised right down to the last hair tie!! And surprisingly not over packed. And as I said I got just as excited this time around but about 4 days ago I hit a brick wall and all my energy and giving a cr*p went out the window. It's actually quite depressing, maybe I need some retail therapy. Or maybe just some therapy? Lol.
Today is shopping/bill day. This day comes every Tuesday and I actually get really excited for this day because it starts off my week. And because I'm super organise so I feel a great achievement when all the bills are payed and the cupboards and fridge are full! I got out of bed around 7am. Fed myself and MJ (Caitlin feeds herself). Got dressed. Checked out all my social media sights. Wrote this post. And it's now 10:30am and I want to go back to bed!! What is wrong with me?????? I actually want to slap myself in the face. Please please please let this stage of pregnancy end soon! Some people take this opportunity to relax but I can't think of anything worse then spending the day sitting on my butt. When i put a movie on, within 5 minutes im up vacuuming or doing the dishes!
Is anyone else going through this? Because I really feel for you!
Well after I post this I am getting up and heading out :) I think the only person who can help me is me (and a bunch of cuddles off Tom ;p) We were given a gift voucher for Coles Myer so I'm going to go take our last laybys off, which are full of hospital goodies, and I'm positive that will get me excited for finishing off our hospital bags. Ill still slowly add to them over the coming weeks but i'd like to have majority of it done by 35-36 weeks. And I will defiantly be posting a video and blog post on this! Promise ;)
Jelly bean is now head down which gives me quite a bit of pressure and I've been told I have an irritable uterus which means it contracts with almost any movement I or the baby do! But although this is really uncomfortable, it's giving me hope that this baby won't be late, unlike my girls who just didn't want to leave mummy!
My skin has cleared up nicely. I don't think I mentioned that it was bad but all the junk I ate over Xmas and with the very hot weather we had, I had a major, very painful break out. I'm really trying to take care of it so I'm glad it's showing such great improvement :) I kind of just use what ever is on hand so it's not worth doing a skincare routine for you guys. But I will get around to going into a beauty store once jelly bean is born and asking what products are best for my skin (oily, rosatia, large pores). Once I have all the proper products, I plan on doing a video :)
My weight has stabilised at 73-74kgs. Although this means I've only gained 4-5kgs, I don't feel underweight or malnourished so I'm actually happy about this. I'm defiantly more plump in the breast, belly and bum area so that's a good sign of weight gain!!
We haven't picked a name yet!! We have 2 that we like but they haven't made me go 'ding ding ding'. I'm trying not to stress about this and just let it come to me :) All my favourite names, Tom doesn't like and vice versa. So we're left with using names that we think are average. If you have any suggestions, leave them in the comments! I'm thinking the name will come to me in some major epiphany moment. I can imagine it now. Walking to the car with all my shopping in hand and suddenly all the bags break (my luck). Over runs a kind old man who offers to help pick up my groceries, although he is fragile himself, and he says "hi my names....." And it will be the best name ever. Or the worst, and ill end up rolling around on the ground laughing..
So that concludes all my updates and I really better go as MJ is now naked, sitting in the (not turned on) shower playing with cat food :)
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DISCLAIMER: I would not trade being a mother for anything in the world! Sometimes we just need to let off some steam (or alot!). I wrote this blog post as I know many mothers have days like these and can relate. Stay sane my fellow mummy's!
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