21 week pregnancy update

Now that I've hit half way, this week has gone so slow!! The baby shower seems so far away, let alone the delivery!!

Week: 21 weeks

Pregnancy symptoms: I had a very vivid dream this week about my nan who has passed away. It was nice to see her again :) Other than that no other symptoms. 

Moody/happy: I was ok most of the week but I had a bad panic attack due to choking on Wednesday, which put me in a very unsettled mood the rest of the day.

Maternity clothes: I received a pair of cargo 3/4 pants by pumpkin patch in small in the mail and there way to big, and I must say, very unflattering on my bum!! Tom said it was a "mum bum" lol. 

Total weight gain: 72 kgs

Sleep: Sleep is ok, I have been tossing and turning a little but nothing that fully wakes me up.

Looking forward to: My birthday :) 23 days! And catching up with all my mummy friends today :)

Worst moment this week: Wednesday morning while eating my breakfast I started choking. It's not because of food getting stuck believe it or not. I had this as a child too which led me to only eat soup for 4 months. Turns out that when I swallow just that little too much, I start to panic and my throat completely closes up. The last time it happened my parents actually thought I was going to die (coming from parents who say "you'll be right" if you break your leg!) I was about 12 years old. Occasionally it starts to happen again, but as I've learned to control my anxiety, it never gets that far. Wednesday I was home alone, mj was asleep in bed, and I swallowed just that little too much. So I walked over to the sink to get some water and calm myself down but the anxiety took over and I couldn't swallow the water. It felt like forever but within a few seconds I remembered the last time I almost died, vomiting opened my throat again so I could breath. So I started trying to make myself throw up and after about 4 goes my throat opened again! But I ended up hysterically crying for over half an hour and having a massive anxiety attack. It was so horrible! I just wish I hadn't been home alone. I did make a video for awareness if you would like to watch that here.

Best moment this week: On a more positive note!! Jelly bean has been kicking so much lately! Tom and Caitlin have both felt it now. I love feeling his kicks :)

Watch my 21 week update here.

Xxx